My want is to worship you, to serve and obey you, to always put your needs above mine. You are my superior. You are strong, intelligent, sensitive and compassionate. You are Woman and you are beautiful.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Is that a Light Ahead?

Most of the tenants had been living there for years. They’d become institutionalized.

We received a cooked meal every evening, although “cooked” sometimes meant baked beans on toast. Sometimes we received stew, other times sausages and mash. Once a week we received a roast. A highlight was when the local Church members would arrive on a Sunday and cook a barbecue for us. Sausages, hamburgers, onions, salad, bread and soft drink.

We had a television in the common room, although it was pointless to try and choose a channel. The majority vote was to watch cartoons or soaps.

In the corridors there were abandoned bits of broken furniture and old, stained mattresses. No one seemed to be in charge of rubbish removal and the litter steadily accumulated as the weeks went by.

Once you hit rock bottom, there’s only one way to go. I still had a mind, even if it was fractured. I’d been knocked down. It was now time to get back up. I owed it to my kids, my friends and myself. Unlike the other tenants in this boarding house, I had a choice. I could escape if I put my mind to it.

I finally came to believe there’s a light at the end of this tunnel. My first task was to find one client and therefore an income.

It didn’t take me long before I had a single client who was prepared to pay a reasonable monthly fee.

On the basis of that I rented a comfortable, renovated house close to the city centre and set up my business from there. A home-based business with a staff of one – me.


Kathy said...


Thank you for posting on my blog.
Your story is very emotional.
Hope every thing works out for you.

Also know that out there is a person who cares about you.

Sweet dreams my baby.

Love, Mistress Kathy

Susan's Pet said...


I would call you by your name, alas, I don't have it.

I am glad to see you back. I realize that you have gone through extreme hardship, and that the venue has changed. I admire your willingness and fortitude to come back and become productive again.

Back in 2008 I checked your blog repeatedly, hoping that you would return. After a while I gave up. I am glad that you left a note on my blog, otherwise I would not have known about your fall and subsequent re-birth. You are an inspiration even to those of us who have not suffered your ills and bad luck. I think that your writing about it, and you have done that very well, helps you and gives us hope in our own trials. You are great. I wish you all the best.