My want is to worship you, to serve and obey you, to always put your needs above mine. You are my superior. You are strong, intelligent, sensitive and compassionate. You are Woman and you are beautiful.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

The Feelings Never Die

It’s been a couple of months since my last post. Not much has happened. I haven’t been in the zone to write much really. We’re leading a very typical vanilla marriage. Yes, we’re still together. Very little sex and no real spice.

Until last weekend, the topic of a female led relationship was barely mentioned. If I started showing submissive tendencies, V would say Don’t start that again or You’re becoming pathetic or she’d give me a threatening look as if to say stop it right now.”

Needless to say I’ve become progressively frustrated and it’s become increasingly difficult to serve her on a regular basis. I find I lose motivation if there’s no sexual overtone.

So, basically we’ve degenerated into sharing household responsibilities. We’ve assumed “traditional roles” around the home.

She’s given up controlling our finances, although she continues to have the final word in that regard.

V’s still quite bossy, mind you. Still demands the last say and doesn’t like me answering back. So, in the deep recesses of my mind I can still fantasize that she’s dominating me.

Authoritarian, I guess you’d call her. But not in bed.

Not until last weekend.

I’ve been feeling sexually frustrated for the last couple of weeks. I’ve even considered visiting a professional domme. I’ve surfed the web for femdom sites and read a lot of femdom articles.

Last Friday I had it out with V. I explained my frustration.

I’m not suggesting we go back to a female led relationship,” I said. But going from one extreme to the other is not working for me at all. Can’t we come to some compromise?” I asked.

V asked what I had in mind and I suggested that we might spice our sex life up a bit as we used to do.

“So, you want to lick my ass, is that it?”

“Yep, pretty much,” I said. "Can’t we have a session, just tonight,” I pleaded.

“OK, but I don’t want you to think this is going to be a regular thing,” said V.

So, that was it. V instructed me to place some towels on the floor. We then stripped naked, she lay face down and allowed me to massage her back, her bottom and thighs. Then she permitted me to lick her ass thoroughly. She even went to the effort of humiliating me by offensive comments, which really got me excited.

That’s all you’re good for, isn’t it. Licking my ass. And drinking my piss. How did I end up with someone so pathetic?”

We finished by her pissing on me. I don’t think I want to make love to you,” she said.

“If you want to cum, you’ll have to masturbate right here and now.” And so I did.

Well, at least it’s a start!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

To paraphrase Churchill: It's not the end of the beginning - it's the beginning of the end. Take it from one who has been there.. :-(