My want is to worship you, to serve and obey you, to always put your needs above mine. You are my superior. You are strong, intelligent, sensitive and compassionate. You are Woman and you are beautiful.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Need to Confess

Last night I visited a friend of ours. Her name’s Heather and she’s never married. I’ve always fancied her in some way and have often felt she could be dominant. There’s that cool, disparaging element about her.

Anyway, I told her the reason V and I had split up was because I was submissive. She asked what that meant and I said I liked to serve women and wanted them to take charge. She seemed puzzled – not disgusted, but uncomfortable.

She said I was just bashing my self up – feeling a sort of self loathing which was totally normal when a long term relationship ended. She then quickly changed the subject.

Don’t know why I felt the need to tell her, but I did.

9 comments:

bossed hubby said...

Add too many variables, and the equation becomes impossible to solve. Stay focused, brother.

Susan's Pet said...

Eh?

Polyfetishist said...

A very understandable need to share and find understanding and kindness from another human being.

Best wishes as always.

helpmate hubby said...

your obviously looking for someone new and that will accept you for who you are. Best wishes.

MissBonnie said...

I think we all, just reach a time when we need to reach out and tell someone.

I hope your new year brings about some good changes for you

Anonymous said...

I feel troubled. Are you OK? I have been in your situation and understands the pain. Please let me know that you are ok!

Eurosub

Kathy said...

Hi, just discovered your blog. Hope you are "ok".

The domianant women of your dreams is out there, somewhere, foy you.

You may think of your self as a slave, and that is fine. However, you need to undestand that a slave has value.

My husband, John, is my slave, but he is the most valuable possession that I own. Your next mistress must understand the value of your love, your service, your obedience;etc.

This is waht makes a male slave valuable to a women.

I jsut don't beleive your former mistress understood this.

Take care of yourself. You are wellcome to visit my blog, or email: kathy4563@gamil.com

Mistress Kathy

subservire said...

Thanks to all of you for your concern and support. I'm sorry I haven't responded until now but I haven't had the desire to return to this blog for some time. Nor have I had the urge to browse the web. In fact, I'm trying to purge my obsession with female domination. Afterall, my obsession has been unhealthy and very destructive.

Best wishes to you all. Stay balanced.

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