Last night I visited a friend of ours. Her name’s Heather and she’s never married. I’ve always fancied her in some way and have often felt she could be dominant. There’s that cool, disparaging element about her.
Anyway, I told her the reason V and I had split up was because I was submissive. She asked what that meant and I said I liked to serve women and wanted them to take charge. She seemed puzzled – not disgusted, but uncomfortable.
She said I was just bashing my self up – feeling a sort of self loathing which was totally normal when a long term relationship ended. She then quickly changed the subject.
Don’t know why I felt the need to tell her, but I did.