A strange thing has been happening to my psyche over the past few days.
I don’t know whether I’m on-heat or whether I’m just sexually frustrated, but my lust or hunger to be dominated by V has grown hugely.
It’s more than just domination. I have a strong desire to be humiliated and subjugated by V.
I don’t dare confide my desires to her. I know what her reaction would be, but the craving is growing stronger and I can’t seem to get it out of my mind.
I’ve been searching Femdom websites – the more perverted the better.
And then I received a comment from Princess Kiki on my last post. That did it!
Her website is quite extreme and she had me in her power.
I’m not sure how to resolve these overwhelming desires – whether to give in to them and seek fulfillment on the web or to try and ignore them.
Maybe they’ll just go away in time, but then maybe not. I don’t want to become a sexual pervert; a masochistic fetishist infatuated with self degradation. But that’s just how I feel at the moment.
I’m becoming a Jekyll and Hyde and the beast is in danger of escape.