My want is to worship you, to serve and obey you, to always put your needs above mine. You are my superior. You are strong, intelligent, sensitive and compassionate. You are Woman and you are beautiful.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Slavery

Last night V and I were watching a movie (the original Stargate) in which there was a group of slaves. I made a comical remark that I wouldn’t mind trading places with them.

V said: “That’s what I don’t get about you. You’re nothing like a slave. At work you’re the boss and you love the power. You get off on power. Even at home you want your own way.”

“But work’s different,” I said. “Of course at work I have to make decisions. I’m always making decisions, but at home I don’t want that responsibility. I think it’s because I have so many responsibilities at work that I want to relinquish responsibility at home.”

“It’s not in your nature to be a slave,” said V. “That’s why I have such difficulty accepting that fantasy of yours. I can’t get into that mindset because you’re not a slave. I don’t want a slave. I want the man I married. The one who is capable of making decisions.”

“But you like it when I serve you,” I said. “You like me pandering to you – cleaning, washing, cooking, massages and all that. In that sense you’re happy for me to be a slave. In fact, you want me to do what you tell me to do. You don’t like me answering back and when I do answer back, you get mad. So make up your mind. What do you want from me?”

“Yeh, sure I like it when you do nice things for me. And I like it when you clean up around the house. But you’re not a slave. And besides, it’s not slavery we’re talking about. Its sexual slavery which is quite different. I don’t like the thought of being a dominatrix, wielding a whip, criticizing you, berating you, humiliating you. In fact, it’s the humiliation which repels me most. I love it when you do nice things for me. But I want you to do them because you love me, not for some sexual favour in return.”

“OK,” I said. “I can see your point. Let’s not go down that path 24/7. But when we have sex, can we still enjoy Femdom role play? It’s something I feel I need.”

“Sometimes I enjoy it,” V said. “But often I like normal sex. I don’t want role play to be the only way we do it. I don’t think you can get off unless I’m dominating you sexually and that worries me. It scares me.”

“But when you whipped me the other day, you really enjoyed it. In fact I still have the welts. You went hammer and tongs. You really got into it.”

“That’s because you deserved it,” she said. “As I said, I enjoy it sometimes and when I’m mad at you, I do like punishing you.”

“So we’re both enigma’s. I think we’re almost compatible, but you have a fear of being a dominant. Why not let it out? Why not express it in ways you’re comfortable?,” I said.

“Oh, for Christ sake, go and make me a cup of tea. And I want a back massage tonight. Now lets get back to the movie.”

5 comments:

femelle dominante said...

That conversation reminds me a lot of ones that my ex and I had in the beginning. I wouldn't exactly argue it but I didn't always understand it. I had to understand the psychology of it all, and that led me to seeing that while it is sexual it's not all about sex. Once I started to see how it worked in his head, and how it made him feel, I was able to not just enjoy it but love it and crave it.

Moshe Menashe said...

... you are so lucky! Just read your own blog, on how it ended, with her making you serve her (coup of tea) and having the final word.

Its not about WHAT you argue about, but her nature is finally to have her ways to everything and you are in the right path. Just aknowledge it. and... SERVE YOUR SUPERIOR WIFE! (don't tell her that though)

faninho said...

I like following your blog. This dialog of today is like a dialog we had a few years hat way and still more in motion than they are today.

I can see as well your ups and downs, and it reminds me on my own ones. One day you think everything is useless and without hope. What about changing the partner? But... The other day you feel your on a right way to more intimacy including those submissive things.

No slave, but full service- it is just HER rules...nothing else. She wants you to be strong- for her-
Anyway it is that the way I have it now. We both know that it is submission but she does not want to call it so - and no words like "slave" and so.

The "knight" - thing is maybe better for you. A good relationship has to deal with compromise- and you know: from time to time you are very lucky -moshe memashe is totally right.
Take care! Just serve her- it will be more and more fun for you.
And keep us informed.

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