My want is to worship you, to serve and obey you, to always put your needs above mine. You are my superior. You are strong, intelligent, sensitive and compassionate. You are Woman and you are beautiful.

Friday, January 5, 2007

YESSS!!!

Last night V rewarded me in a big way!

She told me to go and get some old towels and to lay them on the floorboards in the familyroom.

She directed me to strip naked. Then she proceeded to piss on me, telling me that this was my special reward for being a good boy. I drank her precious gift and exulted in her Womanly magnificence.

V ordered me to masterbate and, only on her command, to cum over myself. Then she said “lick it all up. Every drop.”

It was the first time I’d swallowed my own semen. Perhaps it was the “subspace” I was in, or perhaps it was the enthusiasm with which I took to the task, but I hardly recall the taste of it. It certainly wasn’t unpleasant.

V looked down at me in a self-assured way. She had a haughty arrogant expression as she looked into my eyes, a slight smirk on her face, her hands on her hips, her long legs and majestic womanhood towering above me.

“Go and clean yourself up, then make me a tea,” she said.

It’s been going really well lately. V has been getting into the spirit of telling me what to do. In fact I think she relishes her authority.

She’s taken to it better than I thought. And she’s becoming quite demanding.

She’ll just put her feet on my lap on the couch and not even ask for a foot rub. It’s expected. She’s said her glass of water is never to be empty (she drinks a lot of water). Whenever she’s finished a glass, I’m to refill it immediately. She doesn’t thank me when I bring her anything – a glass of water, cup of tea, her dinner etc. She’s definitely getting into the role.

V’s finding more jobs for me to do and she’s being more critical of my efforts. Whereas before, she’d be appreciative of me making an effort. Now, not only does she expect me to do everything, but she is judging the quality of the tasks I perform.

This morning I asked her whether she now preferred me to be submissive.

“Yes, I actually do. I love you to bits and I adore your submissive side. It’s just that before you were so overwhelming, so intensely into it. You were over the top but now you seem more relaxed. You’re not so full-on.”

I said “that’s because you’re now getting into the role. You’re definitely keeping me motivated. I feel more secure in watching your dominance being released. I can see you getting turned on. Serving you is the only purpose in my life now. It’s the only thing I want to do.”

She said that worried her and that she didn’t want me to lose focus on my career. She didn’t want me to lose my drive. “Now that I’ve stopped teaching, I want to be sure you’re not going to lose the plot. You still have to focus on your job. Now more than ever.”

That’s true. And it worries me. Not only do I now have to provide for my children and my ex-wife, but I also have to provide for V and I. That’s a lot of responsibility.

Serving her, worshiping her is one thing, but I still have to keep a balance in my life and maintain a sense of reality.

What bliss. When I think about how far we’ve come in the past couple of months, I’m amazed.

2 comments:

faninho said...

Yes, what a bliss! You have done a good job in the balance between toping from the bottom and letting her find her pace. You know her and you love her. Obviously she loves you too and in addition she gets used to her benefits more quickly then expected. So she is lucky too.
Your story turns out to be very encouraging for many submissive men to come to terms with their desire, but also to be careful, take the right time and respect the Lady of course- that's the first.
Now you've come so far take your time - there are so many things to explore for you both in the future. I'm looking forward to read about it.
Take care!

wozzekk said...

Great news! Sounds like a dream come true. Keep us updated, please!