A strange thing happened tonight and I don’t think I understand the dynamics of it.
In fact I’m quite confused. Could it be that V has taken this thing to a new dimension, one that is more than I considered?
I’ve already confessed on this blog that I instigated a Female Led relationship. If I’m honest, I manipulated it. I planned and instigated it. But did I, or have I simply opened Pandora’s box? What have I activated here?
I’ve REALLY managed to piss her off and I don’t know why.
It started this afternoon when I said in conversation “Women ARE superior to men.”
She said “Stop. I don’t want to hear that. I’m a feminist. I know that. I know what you’re going to say and don’t say it.” (That’s new. She’s never mentioned she was a feminist before).
She then said “You’ve just destroyed this thing. You’re pissing me off. Go away.”
We left it at that. I had no idea what upset her but I knew enough to let it lie.
All was going well. I’d cooked us a great meal and we settled down on the couch together to watch a movie.
I made the mistake of repeating what I’d said during the afternoon, but I went further. I said “You’re my superior. You’re a woman, you’re genetically superior. You’re more intelligent...”
“”That’s enough. Stop,” she said.
“You’re compassionate, considerate, morally stronger....”
“I said STOP. How dare you disobey me! Get out of here, now!”
“I don’t understand. What have I done that’s wrong,” I pleaded.
“Get this straight,” she said. “I’m in charge now and when I say stop, that’s it. I don’t want to hear that crap and when I say stop, you don’t. You keep going. What sort of a servant are you. You either obey me or you can move out. You’re embarrassing yourself and disrespecting me. I’m not interested in your fantasies. You’ll do what I say, when I say it or it’s all over.”
WHAT THE FUCK?
What’s going on? Has she really taken this thing to the extreme? Has she just flipped over to this totally dominating bitch? I don’t understand, and she won’t talk to me.
So I’ve just come in here and started writing. Trying to get my mind around it. I wanted a LOVING Female Led Relationship, not a sadistic, dominating bitch. This is right out of character for V. What have I unleashed?